Allow me to define the word "fear." Fear is the feeling you get when you get called up to the delivery room in the middle of the night, handed a grey, limp baby with no respiratory effort and giant foreceps dents on either side of its head, knowing that you alone are responsible for the resucitation.
It's the NICU. Welcome back.
Currently reading: "The Neonatal Intensive Care Handbook." Time to brush up.